Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Smallpox

Take this test!
Carefree and fun, you are easily excited when it comes to new experiences — and that includes relationships. It's not that you see boyfriends as frivolous pursuits, but you enjoy the art of the chase, and you work to make sure that long-term relationships maintain that sense of adventure and surprise.


You may not be the type of girlfriend who spends every waking hour with her man, but that doesn't mean you're not thinking about him. You're just an independent woman, and it's important for you to feel challenged and creative in most things you do. That's what makes any relationship an adventure.


I was nauseous and tingly all over. . . .
I was either in love or I had smallpox.

Woody Allen

Monday, April 21, 2008

Queen like


"Beautiful weather isn't it?"
Maybe I'll go shoe shopping.
This is going to be a long day.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

SPCH105

I don't know what to say.
I just read Jilly's blog, I am feeling down.
Down is an understatement I think...
Someone give me a sunflower or a big hug.. or another chance at my final speech.

Untitled

I write this post entirely as my internal monologue dictates...
I am actually lost for words. wow.
Given my way, I'd write a mere "You Smell Good" and end this post.
Because the reality is, I really cannot remember when doing nothing felt so damn good.
For that, I somehow allow that space between my thoughts and the keyboard to become close to nonexistent.
Whoever invented the phrase "take it slow and easy" was wrong.
Sometimes fast is the only fun way to go.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Love


I am feeling super nostalgic after a nice long chat with a friend...
Trying so fucking hard to finish this speech but all I can think of is..


Where the fuck are you la?
Where is that love every single one of us are supposed to have at least once.. Some of us are lucky, it comes once and twice and sometimes more.
I am looking for you.
Where the fuck are you hiding?
Do I already know you?
I am tired la, fucking come and sweep me off my feet..

Spoil me while you're at it will you?
WRITERS BLOCK FUCKERAMA SIAL I NEED TO FINISH MY FINAL SPEECH BUT INSTEAD I FIND MYSELF
BLOGGING

Monday, April 14, 2008

This one cuts deep

Our conversations.. Our relationship.. Our love.. Is too implicit a structure to understand.
The underlying themes and complexity of things is very hard to digest.

Sometimes when I talk to you I open my mouth, the words fly right out in silent consonants. And in that silence I bare my soul, my darkest secret:



I don't know how I am going to do this.


When you caress my face the words disappear... I don't say it. But it's there. Imprinted in my mind... I can feel the warmth lingering, toying with my heart.
But frustrating how words fail me and all I can conjure is a mere smile.
Anyway, I am sure even if I tried..
I would not and could not do justice to these thoughts in my head.

Give me some time to reconstruct symbolism and somehow create a language worthy enough to express how I love you.

Yes, I love you like fuck.

That's as close as I can get, I fucking love you so much.
If you don't already know it, then you're not the person this post is dedicated to.

I like this bumper sticker :)

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Supercat!






I have a tiger who thinks he can fly.
Comel.

Dancing alone



Singlehood isn't as fun as everyone claims it to be.

I am convinced that the whole fun-ness theory of being single was created merely to make single people less suicidal.

Blind faith I'd say.

I mean, fuck, which part of having no one to celebrate the good things in life with is fun?

I remember getting called by ESPN and having Keith say "I'll see you on Wednesday then Beth". I remember scrolling through my phonebook wondering who to call.
Who'd care?
I ended up messaging my loved ones but yeah.

It didn't feel good.
That few minutes of realisation that no one cared the way He cared.

I am tired of dancing all alone.
Call me, pretend you care.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Smile bitch


*dunno who's jacket we were using, but it was freezing cold!*

First day at ESPN was so awesome!
Awesome.
Awesome.
Awesome.
Lots to do today! I'm gonna go google if Jeevan is married now.
I swear he has the hottest voice ever.
ESPN is oozing with talent and all things good ..
What an awesome day.